Right after a problem/ misunderstanding or whatever you call it, here comes another one. But this time, it’s harder. :( And this time, I won’t be able to tell her how bothered I am about this. It sucks. Being with her almost everyday and not being able to tell her what’s been up in your mind the whole day. Her mom texted me… She asked me not to call or talk to you late at night. She said we need to alot time for studies, which we are doing even before she says it. She asked me to help her change you little by little. It’s hardddd. She even kinda blamed me with you becoming so thin, unhealthy and the like.
Today, I told lynelle not to stay up late with me anymore. She asked me if I didnt want to talk to her via phone anymore. I froze. I wanna scream so loud! Talking to you and having those late night stupid conversations is simply everything I ever wanted. I WANNA TALK TO YOU SO BAD. Like, if possible, I WANNA TALK TO YOU EVERYDAY. It makes me sad.. ‘Cause just last night, we were talking about the future. And you said that at that same time next year, we’d still be talking to each other.
I hate this daaay, I hate this month. I just do -_- EVERYTHING SEEMS TO BE HARDER FOR ME AND I’M SO TIRED OF LIVING THE HARD WAY.
It’s sooooo hard when someone tries to tear us down, but it’s even harder when your mom is that certain someone. I wanna tell you so bad. Please knoooow. I dont know how, but please. I hope you’ll find out.. without me telling you. I need youu. I need your comfort. Everything just scares me to death.
I messed up. I really did. I wish you’d forgive me for ruining our day :( Forgive me for.. causing you pain. for.. letting you go through hardships. for.. being so unfair to you. I will never give up on you, trust me. I just didn’t want you to get hurt, I don’t want to hurt you anymore. I love you too much to do so :( But then I unintentionally did. Please, come back. I’m sorry…
So much for our anniversary. FML
